“Mommy, what is it called when you do that?” Lucas asked.
Surprised at his observation, I proceeded to explain.
“That was a sigh…I was sighing.”
Because Lucas is never satisfied with one-word answers, I explained further:
“People sigh for different reasons, from feeling relieved to feeling overwhelmed, or maybe because they’re tired.”
“You’re tired a lot!” Lucas replied.
I smiled faintly, grimacing at his response.
Throughout the remainder of that day his remark echoed in my mind. Lucas was right—I was tired a lot; but I was allowing weariness to defeat me, and the sighs revealed my true spirit.
A restless spirit.
New Year, New Goals
This year, in place of the usual list of goals I’m choosing one word by which to live (and joining a community of others doing the same).
As I thought and prayed over which word to choose, one in particular kept flashing through my mind.
A word I tried to resist choosing, yet one I couldn’t escape.
What happens if I choose it? I wondered. I was afraid. But the silent battles of my heart exposed my very need for the word I was fighting to say out loud.
My word for 2013?
According to Merriam-Webster dictionary, the word rest means “to be free from anxiety or disturbance; to sit or lie fixed or supported; to remain confident: trust. Peace of mind or spirit.”
This year I desire to rest…
…in my identity in Christ, recognizing my position as His child, growing closer to Him.
…in my marriage, displaying Christ’s love and devotion.
…in my parenting, demonstrating Christ’s love, grace and truth.
…in my relationships with others, focusing on their needs, not my own.
…in each moment, basking in beauty simple and grand.
…in every situation, looking to Christ, not man.
…in every circumstance, thanking Him in all things.
…in His provision, casting every care on Him.
…in every opportunity, allowing Him to orchestrate the details.
…in His plans for our family, following as He leads.
In 2013, I will rest.
“Come unto me, all ye that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest…and ye will find rest for your souls.”